Momalom's Five-for-Ten posting challenge, and the first topic for discussion is Courage.
Parenting takes courage, there is no doubt about that. Courage, or utter and complete ignorance as to the risks involved in taking responsibility for the care and feeding of another human being for the rest of their life.
It is dealing with it all when life throws you a curve ball, and you find yourself saying "HEY!, I never signed up for this!! I never knew THIS would happen!" Sort of like the GIs who signed up for military service in a time of unprecidented peace, only to find they had to go off to war. Ya' did sign up for it when you agreed to do this... it's in the contract.. read the fine print.
We don't go around expecting bad stuff to happen. We'd never get anywhere in our lives if we did, and yet parenting takes the courage to face whatever happens and find a way to deal with it.
Middle could have died Friday night. He mistook his fast-acting insulin for his long-acting insulin and took WAY too much of it right before bed. Luckily, he caught his error and woke me up rather than just go to bed. He could have not even realized his error, gone to bed, had a hypoglycemic emergency and never woken up. That much insulin without any food to compensate for it could have been very, very bad.
As it was, we were in a bit of a panic for quite a while, as his numbers kept dropping despite pumping simple sugars into his body. But Middle never wavered. He admitted he was scared, but he kept shoving sugar-coated orange slices into his mouth one after the other to the point where I half expected to see them tossed all over the carpet. He didn't argue with me when I had to come test his blood every 30 minutes until I was sure we were past the worst of it. He took it all in stride.
Which is exactly what he has done for the last 8 months since his diagnosis. I think part of his bravery does come from a bit of ignorance - after all, how can a 9 year old wrap his head around just how serious a low-blood sugar reading can be? But he handles it all with grace and bravery. I hope I can follow his example. I hope I can show him the same amount of courage that he shows me every day.